Sunday, October 25, 2015

In A Funk Update

Five weeks ago I wrote that I was suffering from a funk-ish mood and was verging on depression. Deep down I truly know that bad days come and go and the that the-sun-will-come-out-tomorrow. It's a little tough when things are going badly but if we just keep putting one foot in front of the other the path gets less bumpy and we can walk out of the forest.

So where am I today?  The market and our retirement nest egg have recovered and the prospect of me ending up a bag lady is once again off the radar hahaha. I feel a little better about my looks or maybe I have just accepted that what-will-be-will-be (gee I am chock full of time-tested affirmations today). And most amazing, I feel that after several months of daily devotion to my Bat Mitzvah workbook, I am finally doing better, maybe even OK.

My gratitude meter is UP. I have so much to look forward to and be thankful for. 

Life is Good.

;-)

Nostalgia

We put in a new pantry in the kitchen. It's gorgeous.

I got to chose the pantry door and the flooring. I picked a decidedly old-fashioned motif etched on the frosted glass door. It goes well with my other furnishings which is a good thing since the kitchen is visible from almost everywhere in our open-style home.

I knew I'd never get the pantry floor to match the existing tile so I decided to get something completely different. My thoughts drifted to the bathroom floor in our first apartment (built circa 1925) - those ubiquitous small hexagon white tiles that seemed to be the only tile flooring offered for several decades. Still to be found almost everywhere, only now they are labelled "vintage".  You guessed it, that's my new pantry floor.

Hubby suggested we get a step stool for the pantry to reach the high shelves. Again my thoughts wandered to our first apartment when my mother-in-law insisted that a Cosco chair with fold out steps was a necessity and gave us one for a gift. Oh yes, they too are still available (from the same company!), now labelled "retro" and oh yes, they have it in a beautiful shade of deep red. You guessed it, that's my new step stool.

It occurred to me that the "new" dishes I purchased for this home are also vintage - Franciscan Apple (see blog entry). Hmm, I am thinking that I am perhaps slipping into a nostalgic haze where I seek comforting tangible goods from bygone times. 

OK, I can live with that!

;-)

Wednesday, October 21, 2015

Back To The Future Day

Well, it doesn't look like the Cubs will win the World Series this year although they have come closer than they have in a long while. A lot of the other things envisioned by the 1985 movie are also still waiting. But things certainly have changed for me since 1985.

My career was still in its infancy in 1985 and now I am a contented retiree. I don't obsess about finances or my weight nearly as much (they seemed to be my driving forces in 1985) as both are stable and in good shape. I don't worry about where to live or getting more stuff or feeling the need to compete for well, anything.

I still love my hubby and we still have big fun. We have more friends than ever and thankfully, our health is good (poo poo poo). I love where we live and our pretty house. Our "problems" are little (actually minuscule). 

Yes, Back To The Future Day turned out pretty well. 

I wouldn't go back thirty years even with a time machine... except to spend more time with my parents and BFF...

;-)

Saturday, October 17, 2015

Be Still

I turned off the TV. I shut down the noise and listened to the quiet.  I calmed my mind. 

I erased thoughts of housework, problems, money and schedules. I gave myself permission to skip the concert at the Temple tonight, the craft fair, reading the next book club selection and the birthday party. 

I pretended I am retired in Tennessee and rocking on my front porch. I folded up the paper without reading it.

I sipped my coffee. I refused to obsess about things out of my control.

My motto for today: Be Still and Know That I Am.

Happiness!  And Peace...

Sunday, October 4, 2015

Gift

My Sisterhood Cruise roommate and friend is celebrating 16 Cancer free years!  Her doting husband is throwing her a party but because she has been under-the-weather lately (nothing to do with cancer, Thank God). It's going to be short, only an hour. Never fear, he said, there will be platters upon platters of all kinds of tasty food. Don't eat all day and make no dinner plans he cautioned.

My friend Maxie asked me at services last night what I am giving her for a gift. I said it was something from the heart, a personal possession.

When my BFF was diagnosed with Stage 3 breast cancer in 1996 at the age of 45 I bought us matching Patricia Locke breast cancer pins. She loved hers!  I guessed she would as we were both huge fans of Patricia Locke jewelry. 

My BFF fought her cancer bravely and when she passed away in June 2006, she was cancer free. Her death was caused by medical malpractice and radiation poisoning, not cancer. As you know, Dear Diary, we were "besties" for 40 years and I still miss her everyday and always will.

Tonight I am giving my pin to my new friend to celebrate her own victory. I hope she likes it and wears it as proudly as Sheryl, my angel, did.

Saturday, October 3, 2015

My Sukkot Sermon

Last night I gave the sermon at the Friday night services. As promised, I am posting it here.

I got a bit verklempt at the end and kind of faltered. It was hard to get out the last couple of lines.

Everyone seemed to like it (again, I think its greatest attribute was that it was short). I hope Dad was listening and that I made him proud.

Our Temple "Sermonator" Marlene asked me to speak about Abundance because this week is Sukkot, or Sukkas as I learned it, the joyous festival that celebrates the Great Abundance that fills our lives. Jews forsake their normal dwelling places to eat, and even sleep, in humble sukkahs. This contrast reminds us of All Our Blessings and the open night sky makes us feel closer to God.

A few years ago a Facebook friend posted one of those quizzes that promises to tell you about yourself.  This one asked “Is your glass half full or half empty?”

My friend’s sister quickly replied:  “Glass?? What glass? Did everybody get a glass?? I didn’t get a glass!”   Haha

I did not have to take the quiz to get my answer. I wrote: “My cup runneth over and I never forget it”.

What I know about abundance I learned from my father whose Yartzeit happens to be this week.

Although he was a Yeshiva  Boker, a learned man, my father did not feel the calling to be a Rabbi or Cantor. He was content to lead the prayers, sing, and blow the Shofar on the High Holidays.

Dad worked in a jewelry store six full days a week. Wednesday was his one day off.  He would pick me up from school for lunch between his many errands.  We feasted on canned sardines, bananas and sour cream, and maybe a kichel from the Jewish bakery.

All the time I was growing up, my father and mother never had the same day off, except for Christmas, when we had our once a year breakfast of lox and smoked fish. They never went out to eat, or to a movie.

When my folks finally retired, they bought a one bedroom, second floor walkup condo in Kings Point in Delray Beach Florida.  Kings Point was a precursor in concept to The Villages, except it was almost 100% Jewish.  

Oh how happy they were!  No more cold winters waiting at bus stops!  They had a clothes dryer instead of a line strung in the basement, and cable TV!!  They had time to run errands, or read, or take a nap.  They took an exercise class called Slimnastics, ate the $1.99 breakfast special every day at the Bagel Tree, and lounged by the pool.

Best of all, my father could finally go to the synagogue as much as he wanted. He could show off his tremendous knowledge and beautiful voice, and he quickly became a Big Macker. When he passed away, the entire congregation came to mourn.

If you asked him, my Father would say he was the richest man in the world.

Khag Sukkot Sameach!  Abundant Blessings to all of us! And Shabbat Shalom!

Wednesday, September 30, 2015

Try Harder

Don't you love it when a you find a small product that makes life easier? So at Big Lots a few months ago I found a few bottles of WINDEX TOUCH-UP WITH GLADE ORCHARD APPLE CINNAMON SCENT MULTI-SURFACE CLEANER and decided to give it a try. Apple Cinnamon is my favorite scent (for the kitchen anyway) and red is my kitchen's accent color. And glass cleaner is used several times daily on the counters.

What a cool little product.  It looks good by the sink and smells terrific and best of all it is super fast to use. Just press down on its top and you have just the exact right amount of cleaner to do the job (a tiny bit).  Alas, there are two drawbacks. It's hard to find and expensive. Amazon and eBay want around $7.00 each! No way am I paying that to wipe the counter.

And of course the smart folks at Windex made it impossible to refill it. Or so I thought. I googled "refill Windex Touch-up multi-surface cleaner" and found an instructional video on you tube. Basically the instructions were "try harder" and you will get the thingy open. 

Have I mentioned that I have been bummed in several areas of my blessed, glorious life lately? So much so that I have even not felt the urge to write to you, Dear Diary?  Well, I am taking the words of the video to heart and am going to Try Harder. I will master my Bat Mitzvah book and start taking my vitamins again and work on my looks a bit more. In other words, maybe all I needed was a Touch-Up!

;-)

Friday, September 18, 2015

In A Funk

That is me, I am in a Funk mood and verging on depression.  


I find myself disliking ALL the Republican candidates and definitely Hillary and even though I can respect Bernie, I am certainly no socialist. But that's not all...

The market is down and with it a small but significant percentage of our Retirement Nest Egg.  I hate being in the market at all but have so far not summoned the courage to ask hubby to move his 401K and IRA assets to CDs paying 1%. But that's not all...

I find myself loathing what I see in the mirror. OK I guess I am OK (or better) compared to other ladies my age but this has of late been of little consolation. But that's not all...

I am frustrated and mad at myself at my inability to read Hebrew fluently even though I am diligently studying and practicing every day. OK so I am getting better. But it is so hard going. I am not happy that I have to do the whole Saturday service plus the Torah portion and Haftorah in Hebrew while everyone else had only to read about a page of Torah or Haftorah for their Bar/Bat Mitzvah. If that was all I had to do my Bat Mitzvah would be next week (OK maybe in a month).

OK, I guess that's all.  

Oh, except that I ate all the Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough Ice Cream while hubby has been out of town. Good thing he comes back tomorrow...

;-)

Tuesday, September 8, 2015

Catching Up Part Two

Last night's Philharmonic concert was pretty good, especially because it featured Pops and not the classical music that reminds me of practicing the piano in my youth. 

A "small gathering" for my birthday at the Chinese Buffet is now up to 32 people. Luckily, the manager at the restaurant is able to set aside a whole section for us as their little room will be too small. I have not had a "party" this size in well, NEVER. I think I could have had even more attendees but I tried to keep the "guest list" down.

Maj Jong is on for three times this week - today at the Rec Center with my weekly group, tomorrow at friends (good to be out of the house as the poker guys are meeting here tomorrow night) and on Friday at my house with the neighborhood ladies. I have stocked the larder with snacks featuring empty calories and diet drinks.

Sunday night we are invited to Erev Rosh Hashanah dinner at my friend Addy's house. We went there last year and it was scrumptious and a lot of fun.

The book club will meet at my house on Monday.  Luckily it is after Rosh Hashonah services. I am hosting because mine is the book selection for the month.  I chose Lacy Eye by Jessica Treadway and I hope everyone liked it as it is the first time I have made a selection for the group.

No Bat Mitzvah class this Sunday because of the Holidays. I am bummed because I need all the help I can get. Doing the entire Saturday morning service in Hebrew plus the Torah and Haftorah portions is such a daunting endeavor that I wonder if I am being "punished" for "coercing" the Bat Mitzvah coach into helping me when he wanted to take some time off. 

Well, this is Tuesday and I can tackle the items on my To Do list that I couldn't yesterday because of Labor Day.  Better get going...

;-)

Monday, September 7, 2015

Catching Up

Harv and Vi's new house!
Wow Dear Diary, I feel like I haven't written in a long time but it's only been about 10 days. Life sure has been busy.

Harvey and Vi came for a week and guess what!  They bought a house here in The Villages! We must have looked at 25 houses but in the end, they got the most beautiful one. It has great features and I am (almost) jealous hahaha. I can't wait to have "real" family here with us at least half the year, even though our wonderful friends are truly just like family. But Harv and hubby go back all the way, way way way back. Something really special there.

I am still plugging away at my Hebrew. Hubby took a short break from coaching me by making Harv listen to me read and correct me when I messed up. They sound exactly the same when they tell me what I did wrong.

Friday night after Harv and Vi left we tiredly limped to services. Good thing because 1) it was my Mother's Yartzeit and 2) the Torah portion was Ki Tavo which will be my own Torah portion (hopefully) next year at my Bat Mitzvah. I also got to hear Marlene H. give a great sermon on Ki Tavo which I have now decided is a most excellent Torah portion with lots of potential for my own yet-to-be-written speech.

As a small barter for getting a copy of Marlene's sermon, she nudgied me into giving the October 2nd sermon for Sukkot.  Make it about ABUNDANCE she said, and so I did.  I tried to keep it at 4 minutes like my last sermon as that seems to be very much appreciated. I will send you my sermon, Dear Diary, after I give it.  I don't want anyone to accidentally read it before then and spoil my Big Moment ;-)

Last night we went to my friend Rita's gathering of like minded Conservative Jewish political junkies. Big fun and I got to tell everyone about my experience hearing Ben Carson speak. I asked that we start meeting monthly or bi-monthly as it is OK to meet quarterly three out of every four years but election year is Hot Hot Hot. Everyone seems to agree so I am looking forward to more spirited discussions and Hillary bashing.

I had a long list of To Do's this morning but I realized that it's Labor Day and I can't do items 2 (call bank), 3 (call synagogue office) or 5 (call Doctor about ordering next Prolia shot).

Tonight we are going to The Villages Philharmonic. I dislike classical music but hubby was gung ho. Lots of friends going though so it should be fun.

Believe it or not I have just touched the highlights of my week.  Will catch up more soon.

;-)